Ever since I was little I've always said that actors/performers are just like us.The're humans. But sometimes some hold a greater significance.
This is going to all sounds rather ridiculous,but Corey Monteith's death still upsets me. He didn't do anything to save this world. Horrible things that are more important occurred the same day he died ( which I still say is pure conspiracy... but that the crazy Illuminati hunter inside of me..which I rather not discuss on a public blog.) Yet, I took more interest in his death. one could say that the "higher ups"succeeded, but to be honest,it wasn't because of some pop idol dying, it was the idea in general that an "era" has been cut short.
I'm extremely Anti High School Musical,Hairspray( the movie musical remake),WAS against Pitch Perfect until I realized Anna Kendrick and Skylar Astin were in it, giving it credibility ..therefore watching it...and findingthemovie highly entertaining, cute.Pretty Much I'm a Musical elitest. I feel the performers should actually be...performers. Not Zac Efron and his disney minions.Lea Michelle was the female lead in one of all time favorite Broaway Musicals, and Matthew Morrison will forever be Link to me, so when Krystle suggested I watch Glee, and Kate bought the 1st season....I gave it a shot, and was hooked.
It was the story of any big dreamer from a small close minded town. Not too cliche , just perfect.
As the series grew,I grew. The hopeless romantic fantasize-r always was so confused as to how a show could relate to so much going on in my life at that very moment. As embarrassing as that confession may be...tis the truth. It was my therapy.I felt the joy,the excitement,the heartache, the anxiety. Rachel's dream was mine dream.I'm not speaking hypothetically. There's a reason why my handle is almost always "broadwaygal2005".
I had fought my entire life for music. I had fought the school board.Fought the band director. Eventually fight for my education. Glee came to me at a point in my life where everything was deteriorating. My dreams, what were left of them, were bursting into flames. Rachel reminded me who I had wanted to be, and why.
I wanted that path. When I was 16 I knew deep down I'd leave Tappahannock.I knew I'd escape. I figured I'd study for 3 years at VCU and then transfer to NYU. At that point in life the horn was just my gateway to get me to NYC. Yes, obviously those were the "egoistic years"of human development. I matured a little and realized I had absolutely no way of making it to Broadway and the horn became my priority. But that dream still lingers in the back of my head. When I'm all alone I pick up the remote and go straight to karaoke on youtube. Unfortunately not as much as I used to, but I dont let that flicker die.
The only time I ever felt fully fulfilled, was the moment I stood in Times Square, staring up at all the lights.
To me, Glee was my dream coming true through Rachel. Then to add on her love for Finn, topped it.
Finn Hudson.Dumb yet as perfect as any stupid male can be. He was realistic, not some prince in shining armor. He was adorable.
Glee was more than a tv show for me. Perhaps it was "Fame"for all the dreamers of the80's...where no one really claims the obsession due to the cheesiness, but everyone knows that it changed people.I know it's an embarrassment. I know the show is beyond cheesy at times. But for those who are into musicals (REAL musicals.....tony winners, not nick teen choice awards- though that may seem hypocritical) Glee was the answer.
For this Chubby , lost dream,Tappahannock hater...it gave me something to be excited to watch every week. It gave me that suspense of what could possibly happen.
Why do I refer to Glee as in the past? Because of Corey's death .(yes, ms.obvious at your service.) Its hard to say how the show will go on.But only time will tell.
This scene tore my heart. I talked my mother days earlier after she and Melanie had watched it. She said "you're going to cry."I of course claimed that I always cry.I've gotten rather sentimental with age and tend to cry at almost every glee episode.She reiterated "no,it's going to hit you hard.Melanie and I couldnt stop crying, it made us think of you."
It did. I felt this scene ( that I've posted below) from deep within.It gave me hope. Strength.And more importantly, surprise. My Family saw my own personal journey as Rachel's all along. I cried through a smile.
We're all human. We all have out struggles. Unfortunately some never overcome them. Or the conspiracist within will also say,sometimes there are higher powers you just can't compete against.
Rest in Peace Corey Montieth. You're character was a good rolemodel for the younger generation ( there's almost none nowadays,society wants to only teach fake sentiments and false images) and your personal struggle and fight should also be valued and warn others no matter which story you believe as to how he died.
Yes. I just did a mini homage to a teen idol.But as I said from the beginning of this blog. This is me. I'm going to post my journey and how I feel no matter how ridiculous it may seem. You were warned 4 years ago.
And Now I leave you with Rachel's Broadway Audition.
(I'll embed the video when I have a better connection and not visiting family.)
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