The sun's out and I want to play....

There are times I miss being home for the summer so much that I cant breathe and this lump just forms in my throat with no escape. Maybe its the nostalgia of summer. But it drives me crazy for miliseconds.

politics and religion

The two worst topics to bring up at the dinner table, why? Pride and fear. No one wants to change their opinion, and they should never have to because opinion is all based on perception, how our lives and experiences have molded our  minds, but what about what happens when we make ourselves superior and feel that our opinion is not an opinion, its the answer? 

The odd thing with all this is that politics and religions come as one, should that really be so? Just because I'm a devote Christian doesn't mean I have to have the same political beliefs as another. And yes, I am Christian. I'll tell that to anyone who asks, but to shock those who are rather close minded..guess what, I have my own mind.One of my best friends doesn't believe in God, I have friends who are Jews, I have friends that are extremely right winged military and others who are as communist as Fidel Castro. But they are my friends. Does God look down on me for this? Has he shunned me thinking that birth control is a right as well as being pro-choice? I don't know, have no idea, and NEITHER DO YOU. But what I do know are two simple things that are mentioned nonstop in the bible...1- Unlike other religions, we were given FREE WILL. We have the choice, as humans, to think what we want and react upon it without being judged because only one entity is allowed to do the judging, and as far as I know...you are not God. 2-We are FORGIVEN of our sins when we are finally at the moment of judgement. I'm not saying that I can go about knowingly living a sinful life, but if I live my life according to how I interpret the bible's TEACHINGS ( which is a whole other issue people would LOVE to argue bc many forget that the bible itself, physically, was used as commonly law at its time, therefore the actual teachings are "skewed" and the message is mixed in within the law) I know what I will have in my portfolio to show to God at the end. 

We have no idea what God thinks, we can only live to what we feel he has tried to teach us, and testify/witness.Now. I don't think the definition to testify is..shove what you know down someone's throat until the agree to believe it just to make you happy not God. I'm pretty sure that's more of inhumane torture. I don't know. Just saying. And if God did give us free will, everyone has the right to believe what they want, therefore, how can politics force our Christian values onto someone else. And I use Values rather loosely, since there are various "christian morals" within the political system that really aren't christian but more traditional views. But again, another topic. 

I would love to get a little debate going, or even just an enlightened discussion ( I rather the latter.) Play nice, because no opinion should engulf your soul. No one should get outraged for someone else having a different opinion...we should always see debates as a moment of self discovery. We all have opinions but it isnt until we really start digging to defend that opinion do we realize why we believe so strongly in those bunches of words. 

thats all. It's a holiday here in Chile, so in typical Chilean fashion, nothing is open and I'm stuck in the house.I needed my mind to be productive so I wrote.

now the time has come to prove to them I've made it on my own....

I know that's a little dramatic...but...I'm not far from that feeling. I'm terrified. If I can get through this semester I will have proven to myself I have defeated one of my biggest demons. Sitting here looking at all the sheet music I have to learn from here until October I'm feeling very overwhelmed..and then I remember ..it doesn't stop there...I'm booked up until I go home in December. I never thought I'd get to this point, make me only wonder what will happen if I can get through it. Everything is so different now, even from a year ago. It amazes me how life is always evolving, always developing a new course or fine tuning an older one. I'm uber intimidated, but have to remind myself. I've got to this point because people have faith in me to fulfill the tasks. Time to let Alberto out of his comfort zone....

Maybe I'm TOO clean...but...

Is that a wrong thing?

My Pet Peeves...
-Not washing dishes immediately ( the only time I USED to leave dishes dirty- because I loathe it now unless sick- is when someone else has left their mess there....I cant even bring myself to do that now)
-Leaving the kitchen(or any room at that)  a wreck. Is it really that hard to put things away the second you've used them? And what about cleaning the counter before you eat your food..it takes 2 seconds..and nothing is left to crust
-Leaving every light on...there's something called conserving energy AND money.( Also did you know a tv uses more energy than a laptop and radio combined?..)
-Leaving a mess in general. If you move something, put it back right after. Again. Not that hard. We're all decent Human beings ( or I would like to think so) so act like it.
-Not hanging towels. ......I'm frightened to even think I'd have to explain that.
-Leaving the toilet seat up...plain lack of manners/upbringing
-Wasting food. Why are you gonna let something go bad in the fridge(I'm not talking about once in a while)? Are you that fortunate that you can let something go rotten..therefore wasting the money?
-If you are a guest...don't make someone buy you food or make something for you to eat. Most of the time if there's no food to give you..there's a reason.

Now I'm not directing this to anyone ( don't want my roomate thinking this rant is all about her, haha) On this rainy drowsy day I began thinking a little in depth about my annoyances. There are of course tons of other things, but I guess since I've become extremely tidy over the years, its the habit I notice more..lack of tidiness.

I know this blog was as random as can be...but I'm BEYOND bored.

This is WAR

OKAY. I'm finally down to about a size 12 ( Haven't been this size since I was probably 15/16) yet I lack any shape...therefore making it pointless to be a size 12....then your belly fat still hangs when you sit down. While I was home for the summer/winter I was doing the Tiffany Rothe workouts via youtube. They definately made a difference...but the fact I gained about 16 pounds while home defeated the purpose of gaining slight definition. Since I've been back I've lost a good amount ( 10 pounds almost instantly..I'm telling you...now I understand why everyone critics the American Lifestyle to being such a fat society....its not the fault of the consumer...its culture and what we are given to eat...) but I need to lose more. I'm tired of being so out of shape, so the war starts NOW. Since Monday I've been back on my workout routine and today starts the lemon-water only "diet" ..haven't decided to fast or not...but the fact that I may be sans food for a day or two...might be used to my advantage. I'm not big on diets...but we'll just go with the flow...BUT I will try to stick to only lemon water as my beverage...no lemonade...lemon water. I already drink practically just water....but adding lemon to burn some fat wont hurt...now will it? Lets see how it goes. Wish me luck!!!

EPIC

I'm nowhere against my own government or the free nations of this world, because if it wasn't for them I wouldn't be able to post this right now...but I am against society and the lack to learn or obtain knowledge. Therefore I share these things. This video has SO MUCH of my own beliefs that I was in awe that there was proof to my suspicions.I've been told to be careful as to what I share from what I learn, to not stir the boat..but was it not the great philosophers such as Socrates and Plato that saw ignorance to only be the cause of never being enlightened, that the great evil in the world is to not the share the knowledge you are taught? 

Closer to the end...

(found this while surfing the web...found it to be beautiful...)

A good family name or respect is EARNED, not bought. No matter how much money someone has or how high they put themselves doesn't give them the right to threaten others.I come from a very well respected family, on both sides, both of which have taught me that patience and the truth wins in the end. We must fight for whats right and not give up. Materials are replaceable. This is about integrity and maltreatment. Praying that tomorrow is one step closer to finding a solution.