I realize now I'm as disposable as the camera in your hand...

A part of growing up is losing grip of something you've had ...but as we all know won't last. Today I charged my U.S phone, I haven't turned it on since the planed lifted from Miami. In American culture, your phone symbolizes you. I didn't fully come to this conclusion until today when I realized how many memories a single plastic object can hold. I began looking through texts and listened to my ringtones. Life has changed, I've changed. I still have Kesha waking me up every morning..but it's not my ringtone. I don't live that lifestyle anymore, along with I've Gotta Feeling and lord knows You Belong with Me will NEVER be on my phone again. Now it's Do Wah Do ( look up the video...it'll explain everything.) I got into such a wierd funk that I put the phone down and let it continue to charge for Jaime.

And then I realized I didn't look through it's most important cubbie hole...Images and Video. I began looking through my pictures. One of O.C in Mechanicsville holding up a Best friends poem frame the day the mommies finally meant ( days before I left) , "You Want Sausage" torn from a Cary Town Mcdonald's bag( which of course became my background along with -once again- "yvonne is awesome"), and an Iron Mask pic with Goose and Derby. But then I decided to look at the videos. The last one? A random group at 1411...singing Hakuna Matata

Life changes.

When I was a freshman at VCU I felt the thread between my high school friends and I thinning. I went through some really rough patches, and by my last year there what was once a solid group of friends was down to maybe 4 of us through my eyes, this of course changes depending on person...we're like a venn diagram. This is now happening with VCU friends. But I'm fine with it this go around for the most part, it just hurts to remember that feeling of happiness with people you'll probably only see in passing. It's the memories that make it hard, but then you listen to a song.

Be ok...by Ingrid Michaelson...

And then you look at what you have left.

Today :

I carried a 30 minute convo with Rox...just using Skype emoticons

I listened to Krystle practice her uke

Tim and I discussed our excitement from seeing BSG references

Yvonne sent me a creepy Bed Bug vid ( no...seriously...I may have nightmares)

This week :

I got to semi experience a Virginia summer night while talking to Todd as he sat in his drive way

Jason..well...

Goose shared random vids

and I can't forget the weekly podcast...

These moments remind me that though things change, the important factors stay.The title to this blog is from a Half Jeffersons song "Don't You Wonder." It's all about how we change, how people have to deal with change while at the same time we have to deal with our decisions. Every decision we make has it's consequence, and I think for once I'm ok with this. It's best to look at the past and be happy with the outcome, right? :-)