As I sat in the den watching P.S I Love You with Todd, I looked over at him and thought " Nothing has changed." Since I've been home I've spent some time with friends. Friends I thought we'd never be able to go pass the past,friends I've known since before the creation of this Kristol began, and the friends I can't imagine allowing one day to pass by without speaking to them. Not one single beat has been skipped. It's a comforting feeling. No matter which friend it was, I was able to walk up to them, exchange hugs, and conversation would start as if I had just seen them the day before. No awkwardness. No butterflies. No insecurities. Just pure friendship.
Is this a sign of me growing up? I had some other personal things occur that made me realize....friendship is all I need in life. It's such an amazing feeling. Knowing there's no ulterior motive. I'm liking this.
Tomorrow, of course, I get to see the Jimmy James crew ( I've already semi molested Kelly outside of The Village...which of course is typical in our friendship, haha) and I'm beyond ecstatic. I'm about to make my Bangin Broadway Brownies after I've given myself alone time with Pandora( oh how I have missed thee..) and Vacuumed the second floor.
This upcoming weekend I get to see an old friend I haven't seen in maybe 10 years. That'll be awesome. Keeping it a surprise for a bit to see how mamma and daddy are gonna react. It just starts out the new year on such an epic level. Makes me really look forward to 2011. And I still have to see O.C. Leave it to me to leave one of the best for last. I guess since I started the friendship train with Tim and Krystle and then just went from there, I started with a bang and might as well end it with another one. Words can't explain how calming this all is, to have such a revelation about friendship. I was having such a rocky time when I left, but to return to tranquil encounters, makes me smile from within. Of course I don't want to jinx it, so I'll keep it simple. I'm just happy.
Another thing I'm excited about? Driving alone. I think that's my favorite past time. On the ride back from Richmond the other day I blasted Katy Perry's Teenage Dream and sang at the top of my lungs. Despite the fact I'm gonna be judged hardcore about the song choice, it was very liberating. Windows down and singing, knowing no one in the world could hear me .
Life is just nice. Right now some Etta James is blasting through my ear phones, At Last of course, and I'm just swaying. oooo and now Banana Pancakes by Jack Johnson. I may not have the guy aspect, which I know I've been complaining about for ages, but at the moment, I'm fine with this. I think I'm to the point perhaps I want to be in something more serious when it comes around, but...I'm not rushing it. I'm enjoying being on the same continent of the people I truly love. Simple. Two months are going to go by fast, so I need to soak in as much as I can. I ready for the shenanigans :-)
